It was a refreshing experience, one that stilled the storm of uncertainty.
In the late 90's, I sought help for a problem that had been the bane of my life since the age of ten. There was no website like this one back then - at least I was not aware of one - so I picked out a few names from the counselling pages of the phone book and called them. They all sounded nice but I liked the voice of one man especially so I made an appointment. To my surprise, he was an odd looking fellow - in the beginning I didn't really warm to him - but I continued to see him and bit by bit my story unfolded. I suppose I saw him for 8 sessions in all, not that many. It was enough. Since then I have reflected a lot on what came out; stuff I never realised was there. Emotional stuff, long buried and forgotten.
There was something about Brian (my therapist) and don't ask me what exactly because I couldn't tell you but I can say that he had a very calming affect on me. I felt totally accepted, like I could say anything - and I mean ANYTHING - without fearing rejection in any shape or form. He also had the nak of knowing what was needed in the moment; sometimes we just sat quietly, sometimes we shared a laugh, sometimes I talked my head off and I know he heard every word. Sometimes I cried nearly the whole time. Once he gave me a hug. All this was just what I needed, when I needed it. Never was he he out to change me, make me into someone or something I wasn't - this may seem rather basic but in a world where people continually have expectations, it was a refreshing experience, one that stilled the storm of uncertainty that blew up whenever I wanted to get a sense of who I was and what to do with my life.
I have absolutely no idea where Brian is today, we did not stay in contact and I do not at this point feel the need to track him down, but if he ever reads this - and I hope he does - I want him to know that he is a wonderful guy and a superb therapist. Thank you Brian... thank you with all my heart. I wish you well. TR
P.S. Brian, I know I told you in our final session that I found you to be odd looking (at first), I hope you won't mind me sharing this here.